I am a porn addict, or at least I "was". I'm a game addict, or at least I "was".
Six to eight hours a day on passions that have taken me away from family, sleep, health
, since I was 14. That's nine years out of forty-four. Before I met Martina
I used to touch myself 10 times a day. I used to play for weeks
without getting up from the computer except to eat. Sometimes I'd spend hours
earching porn sites before I finally found something kinky
and new enough to make my penis erect. My connection
to with the outside world and women was non-existent.
I met Martina a year ago. When I was with her, I always got
a zest for life. My life took a complete turn. I managed to leave porn
and games. My sexual desires were back to normal. My relationships with women
were sorted out. I managed to overcome my hopeless
desire for an unattainable woman who only used me. I learned self-respect and
humanity. After a break of almost ten years, I had a serious girlfriend again.
I look at women in a completely different way now, and they look at me in a different way: they
flirt now, even though they didn't notice me before.
Martina is, in my opinion, a very attentive, prepared and professional
exologist. I recommend her to anyone who is lost and trying to find their life
and themselves.
Now, in detail, what I have achieved in a
during a
year of sexology consultations, which I attended every 3 weeks.
1. I don't watch porn. I used to watch 6-8
hours a day.
2. I play significantly less
online.
3. I no longer have erection problems
4. I have a girlfriend. After 8 years of being single.
5. I am more proactive. I take more risks
I dwell less on my failures.
6. better at setting boundaries
with people (former oppressors, bullies)
7. I read more and more. I am developing
my communication and interpersonal skills. I listen to an audio book
instead of music while running and driving.
8. I brought sport back into my life.
When I can, I run at least 2-3 times a week.
9. I started to develop my empathy
skills. I can empathise better with other people's situations. (Before
I was willful and insensitive to others.)
10. In the meantime, I fell hopelessly in love
with an unattainable woman (of course, she looked like
the actress in the movies). She was playing me the whole time, but I didn't notice. Martina's painfully
sobering feedback allowed me to deconstruct this.
11. I left a job
in a toxic environment.
12. I can manage my mother's
affairs more efficiently. I can easily sense her manipulations. I fall for them less.
13. I also feel the manipulations
of my old-new boss better. I can smooth things over more effectively.
14. I also improved my communication skills:
I find it easier to put myself in someone else's perspective.
15. I am more determined and focused.
16. I left a job
I hated going to.
I stand up for my mother and my child
when I want to assert my interests.
(I have been oppressed, dominated
and manipulated in the past.)
18. I have cleared my addictions.
At least I'm interested enough in real life that I'm not completely wrapped up in
my addictions.
19. today I manage to fall asleep without
watching porn. This used to be unthinkable.
20. I am much braver with women.
It's less hassle to talk to them, to talk to them. The real
world has opened up since then and I'm able to make connections. For the first time in my life I asked two girls
for their phone numbers.
21. during my porn-addicted period
I only liked women with manga characters: thin waist
, disproportionately oversized breasts, etc. that's the kind of woman I wanted in real life. My expectations
were so high that I only liked two porn movies out of 100.
22. masturbated 10-15 times a day. Thanks
to the consultations this has been reduced considerably
23. The consultations helped me to understand why
women reject me.
24. complain less
25. solve my problems myself
26. experiencing the joy of life more
intensely
27. women
flirt with me now, they didn't even notice me before - Martina says it's because my appearance has
changed
